Every once in a while, I feel a bit…flat.
Nothing in my life is going terribly that I need to change. In fact, I have a pretty stellar life. I live with my best friend and have two cats. I have a job that I like and is keeping me entertained for now. I know what things I want to do in the future, but am also open to opportunities that come my way.
Basically, things should be good. But I feel stagnant.
I have decided to take July off of running and wait to jog until my hip is 100 percent better. This has not been as hard of a decision as I thought. I don’t really mind the elliptical (within reason) and also have been trying to do more focused strength training. I’ve taken up yoga again when I have time.
I still feel like I am not going in a direction I want. Or at least I could be moving faster.
People talk about overall health. I think I do a pretty good job of that. I am vegan, but that is for ethical reasons. I enjoy my fair share of whatever I want be it really expensive fruit (WTF dragonfruit??? $5 splurge) or a pint of ice cream. I am at a place now where I truly enjoy food both because it makes me healthy but also because it is fun.
However, a bit personal here, I think I could do with a few more pounds on my frame. This thought, not the extra love, but the change, is what I think is making me feel flat.
I could just keep doing what I am doing and be relatively fine. I enjoy all food, I try to eat both intuitive (when I am hungry) and not (to enjoy moments and flavors) and I generally like my body. There are a few things I deal with that aren’t ideal. I won’t go into those personal things, but they have stood out to me in the past week more than they usually do.
Maybe it’s the summer (I wear less clothing) or the meditation from the yoga, but I’ve begun to ponder my journey toward a healthy life. What if I had the same relaxed attitude about food that I have now, but have 10 or 15 more pounds on me? Would I enjoy my life more? Would the things I do not like about my body change? Would the things I do like about my body change?
I think the answers to those last three questions is yes. That has inspired me to change a few things.
I have never tracked calories or macros. That ain’t my jam folks. I don’t plan to do that. However, I’m not an idiot. I know that scientifically speaking, if I eat more calories than I expend, the weight will come on. With that weight, I hope the other difficulties I am noticing will resolve themselves.
I don’t have a plan yet (maybe tomorrow’s post?) but that is the direction I am heading.
I would love everyone’s thoughts or if they have done this kind of thing before, any helpful pointers they have. Keep in mind, I am an athlete so I eat pretty hardy anyway.
No questions, just your thoughts.